My Christmas Present
I wasn't planning on seeing Al tonight, in fact I was kind of trying to avoid him but he called me earlier and said he wanted to give me my Christmas present. I told him, I had nothing for him but he said it was alright and insisted I come over anyways. So after the dinner with the family was over, I headed over to his place. I didn't expect much from him, in fact I thought it was a ploy to get me into his bedroom again. I planned on not letting that happen but when I opened his present emotions took over me. I was literally overwhelmed. He had bought me a Tiffany's necklace. By far the best present a guy has ever bought me. And after he put it on me we started to kiss. It wasn't long before I was half naked and on my knees going down on him. And within thirty minutes of walking through the door I was where I said I wouldn't be. I was in his bed naked except his necklace. And when he was done, he went right to sleep. I was tired but couldn't sleep. I wanted to take a nap but I felt dirty. I kind of felt like a hooker. I kind of felt like a slut. I mean I've literally only known him for two weeks. And I don't think I really like him. I like the concept of him - an older more mature man. A man that would make my friends jealous. A man that would piss my parents off if they knew what we were doing. And a man that can buy me a lot of things I can't afford. I left before he woke up. I left a note saying that I didn't feel well which I guess is half true.
I'm going to hell
So, I'm so bad. I went to Church with my parents tonight. During the entire service all I could think about was sex and blowjobs. I'm definitely going to hell for that. I couldn't concentrate. I swear my panties were damp by the time the service was over. But the fun didn't end when it was over. My parents know just about everyone there and had to talk to just about everyone there before we could leave. I just kinda trailed behind them, smiling when I was being introduced or whatnot. However, I did run into a guy I knew from high school. He's really cute but a little odd. I wouldn't call him a religious freak but I think he goes to church every weekend. I think he tried to ask me out on a date. He asked me if I was going to service the next Sunday. And he said if I was that I should go to the young adult meeting afterwards. I don't know if he likes me or is trying to "save me." I mean I know he knows about some of "antics" in high school. I think the whole school knew about some of my blowjob adventures. Or maybe he's just looking for my blowjob. But you should've seen my mom's face when she saw me talking to him. She'd love for me to date a guy like him. All I could think about was sneaking off to a back room for a quick blowjob and maybe more. I highly doubt, I'll be going to church next Sunday for many reasons including that it's New Years Day and I'm hopefully going to be too hungover to even get out of bed. But I wouldn't mind seeing him again. However, I really do have too much going on in my life right now.
Well, I had sex tonight and it wasn't what I expected
My second date with Al ended before it even started. He picked me up and we were going to go to some restaurant when we had to stop at his house because his work was calling him for some file that couldn't wait until after the weekend. So we had to me an emergency stop. It was supposed to only be for a minute but he got stuck on the phone trying to explain something. And yes, I said his house. Which is kind of odd because most guys I know don't even rent apartments. It was kind of impressive but I still got bored pretty quickly waiting for him. He whispered that should make a drink and I found a bottle of Bicardi in the kitchen, which is my weakness. I finished one glass before he finally got off the phone. And, I don't know something took over me. When he joined me in the kitchen, I wrapped my arms around him and we started kissing. I whispered that I was horny and that I wanted him. Silently, he led me into his bedroom. It was weird too because it had a theme and everything matched. By far the nicest guy's bedroom I had ever been in. There wasn't much foreplay. We got pretty much down to business pretty quickly. Our clothes came off and there was a little more kissing, and some feeling. But once, I was on my back and my legs were spread he entered me. I wouldn't say I was disappointed but I was expecting more. I don't sleep with a lot of guys and I thought this was going to be special but it was kind of ordinary. And while it felt good he lasted only a few minutes the first time. The second time, he last longer actually too long. I was basically bored. I was expecting more from an older lover. Once, he was done we got dressed and he took me home. While he was driving, I told him that I didn't want to be just a "sex toy," even though I kind of think that's all I'll ever be with him. Because, that's all I feel about him. And the funny part is I want to sleep with him again. Other than that I don't have much to talk about. I've made out with my boss from work a couple of times but I've been holding back with him. I don't really know if I like him. I kind've need to figure out some things I guess. And as far as the cop, I've talked to him on the phone a couple of times but that's going nowhere right now.
It's Official I Can't Control My Mouth
So the date part of my date with Al went ok - at times it was awkward because we really come from two different worlds. During dinner, there were times we had nothing to talk about. At other times we couldn't stop talking. But, after dinner while we were parked out in front of my house talking I think I might have gone to far. I was about to go in when we kissed. The kiss got pretty hot - and my hands got a little naughty. They found their way into his pants. He pulled back from kissing me and I think he was a little surprised. But instead of stopping, I pulled his cock out of his pants and proceeded to go down on him. I think he enjoyed it but I think he was almost "shocked" by it. He was just pretty much silent until he warned me that he was about to cum. Of course me being me I didn't stop until he came in my mouth. But after he came it was just kind of awkward. He didn't know what to say. That made me nervous. We only said a couple of more words before I got out of the car. I was just so horny - and I wanted to taste his cock so bad. Maybe, I was a little too forward but there's not much I can do about it now.
Nothing good yet but it's going to get interesting
So I met another guy tonight. Ok, maybe met is the wrong word because I already know him. I'm not a big club girl, I've gone to them from time to time and had some fun but I'd rather go to a party. But tonight, my friends convinced me to go to this one club where you had to be eighteen to get in and didn't need any ID to drink. Well, I was running (running because I was dressed like a slut, wearing almost nothing) from my friend's car to the club when I heard a guy yell my name. I didn't see anyone that I recognized in the parking lot but I did see a police car. When, I got closer I saw that inside it was the cop that patrolled my high school. I was pretty excited to see him. He's young and really hot, I used to flirt with him a lot but he had always been well behaved. And he started out the conversation pretty innocent enough, but when I leaned forward into his car, he didn't hesitate to see if he could get a look down my tank top. It was no accident that I let him have a view. I don't know where it came from, I'm usually pretty shy. I got his cell phone number, then told him I had to go before I froze. He said, he hoped I would have a lot of fun inside with the boys, but he said when I was ready to have fun with a man he said to call him. Inside, I didn't have too much fun even though I got a nice little buzz going. Which, is probably why this is my most well written post. But when, I left the club he was long gone. Things are interesting with my manager but nothing really happened this week, we'll see what happens I guess. And Saturday, after my shift I have my big date with Al. It should be interesting too.
Another intersting night
So things got a little interesting tonight. Remember, that manager I had my eye on - well things happened. He's only a couple years older than me but I hope he counts as an older guy because tonight, we were the last ones working. Usually, it's a manager and a bartender but tonight it was just me, him and cooks and clean up crew. We had been flirting the whole night, more than usual and I don't think it was by accident that he made sure the two of us were the last ones left in the restaurant. At first things were kind of normal, I was prepping for the next day and he was counting cash and doing paperwork. But at some point we realized we were alone. I was sitting on a table when, a little seductively with my legs spread when he came up to me. At first he was a little hesitant but then he went for it and kissed me. It was just a kiss, and wow did I want to go down on him. As we kissed I could feel him growing hard against me but I was a good girl and controlled myself. And now we're suppose to hang out on his night off this week. But I'm hoping hanging out is just code for me going down on him. But when I got home, I left a message with Al. I forgot that he would probably be asleep since he probably has to wake up early.
Back from school
I've only been home from school for a day and I think I may have met someone earlier tonight. I'm working at the restaurant again - and one my first table was a group of guys. All of them at least ten years older than me but super cute. These tables either go really good or really bad. This one started off really bad. As soon as I got to the table they all started hitting on me. Fun at first but got annoying quickly. And it was kind of rough. But one of them, realized I wasn't having fun with them and made his friends calm down. From there on it was pretty good. He ended up being the only to keep hitting on me which I didn't mind at all. And right before there leaving he stopped me in hallway that leads to the kitchen and bathrooms. He introduced himself to me. Asked me if I wanted to go out with him sometime. I said yes. And he gave me his business card. And usually, I'll wait to call a guy but I couldn't wait this time. As soon as he left, I started to wonder how old he thought I was. Because he has to be at least 30. He guessed, I was 22 and I left it there. And we agreed to go out sometime this week. Kind of weird how it all happened. I wasn't expecting it to be like that. I had my eyes on one of my managers at the restaurant when Al decided to drop into my life.
Not right for relationships?
So - nothing happened with Claire and her boyfriend the other night. Even though we've all done a lot together things were awkward and we ended up just watching television. But it did give me some time to think. Maybe "J" is right maybe I should find a man instead of messing around with boys. But for me the hard part is finding the right man. I meet a lot of boys, a few men but none seem to keep my attention for more than a few nights or even hours sometimes. Maybe I should stop looking. Enjoy what comes along and stop worrying about a relationship. I know several boys and have my eyes on a couple of men that I'd really love to just go down on but I know they're not right for relationships. I mean that's literally the way I was in high school and I had a lot of fun. But at some point I started looking for something serious and it look out a lot of the fun. But then again maybe I'll change my mind. We'll see what happens...
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