Still on number 4
Well, I'm still at number four. Things kind of faded fast after Monday. And I'm kinda glad they did. Monday afternoon he came over. We were suppose to go out shopping together but we never made it out of my livingroom. Things got pretty heated on the couch so we moved to my bedroom. We're going thru the motions. Kissing and holding. Clothes start coming off. It's pretty hot. He's on top of me grinding against me. And even though our jeans and underwear it's hot. And our jeans come off and it gets hotter. We're as close to having sex as we can be without having sex. At this point, I really really wanted to have sex with him. He pulls my panties off and starts rubbing me. He's fingering me and it felt so good. But for some reason it stopped feeling right. I'm not talking about him fingering me. It just didn't feel right emotionally. Not in some weird Chruch way either. I've done a lot naughtier things. I think I just realized, he was out for only one thing. Which, if all he wanted was blowjobs I would've been fine with that. But all he wanted was sex. I felt like I was nothing more than a pussy to him. He wasn't pushy or forceful about it. But he definitely wanted to have sex. I ended up giving him a blowjob. It wasn't a great blowjob, I was literally just going through the motions but it was enough to make him cum. And for the first time his cum didn't taste good. He left after that. Made up some excuse he had to be somewhere else. Which is kind of funny because an hour earlier when we had started making out he had told me he had nowhere to be for the rest of the day. He said, he would call on Tuesday but he didn't. Which sucks for him because I think if he had put a little more effort into it I would've slept with him. I just needed to know he wanted more than just sex. But it's ok, I think I'm hanging out with Claire and her boyfriend Friday night!
Number 5?
Earlier tonight, we went to the movies. It wasn't by accident that we went to a late show and sat in the back row. As soon as the lights were off his hands found his way to me. One very naughty hand found its way between my legs. Unbuttoning/unzipping my pants and finding my panties already wet. But he definetly made me a lot wetter. I returned the favor with my mouth. I know it's a shock. And even though he didn't make me cum, I made him cum, right as the usher was doing his walk around the theater. James said the usher didn't see anything but I think he had to have seen something. I feel kind of bad because, as we were walking out after the movie, he asked me if that was the first time I had giving head in a theater. I said it was but in reality I can't count how many times I have in that exact theater. Let alone all the movie thaters I've been to. In his car, we started making out. We moved to his backseat, we he was on top of me and things got pretty hot. We were dry humping, grinding against each other with our clothes on. He unzipped my jeans and I thought he was going to fuck me. I was so horny then I would've let him but instead his fingers attacked my pussy again. But soon again we were grinding against each other. This time the only thing that seprated his cock from my pussy was the thin satin fabric of my panties the fabric of his boxers. I think if there was a condom there, I would've let him fuck me. His cock pushed my panties into me and I was dying to just pull our underwear aside. But instead, I started giving him a hand job. It didn't take him long to cum. The only thing that I didn't like was that he came all over my panties and shirt. Luckily, my parents weren't awake to see the big cum stain down the center of my shirt. But from past experience I've found that cum comes out pretty easy in the wash. And I'm still thinking about having sex with James. Making him number five. We'll see what happens this week. But I have to go now. Tonight's events and writing them down have made me very wet and I need to satisfy myself. So, goodnight.
Back home
My car was fixed on Thursday, unfortunately, I was really looking forward to a long drive home with James. Instead, I had a long and very boring ride home by myself. But when I got back into town we met for our first real date. Honestly, I could've skipped it. We went out to eat, the food was great but it seemed to last forever. And I say seemed because I lost track of time and it probably wasn't that long but it felt like it was. All I wanted to do was be alone with him but he didn't get my hints and insisted we go out. After it was finally over he asked me what I wanted to do. If it hadn't been so cold, I would've gone down on him right there. Instead, I carefully suggested we go back to my parent's house. They were asleep but it so reminded me of high school (like it's been such a long time). We had to be so quiet and ever sound we heard we went silent. It's kind of weird but I didn't realize how much freedom I have at college - to do whatever I want with whoever I want anytime (assuming my roommate isn't around). Things started pretty innocent - watching television which of course was just a cover to get him to go home with me. Not like I really need a cover. Of course one thing leads to another and we're making out. And when he goes to take off my shirt, I led him into my bedroom. We kissed some more and the clothes started to come off. I went down on him. His cock tasted even better this time. And it felt so good between my lips. And his cum tasted even better. And after he came, he went down on me. Which, really surprised me. I can count the number of times guys have gone down on me. He made it really hard to keep quiet. And after I came, we just laid in bed, it was great. I could've fallen asleep like that but I had to kick him out. I don't think my parents are ready for that yet. I just hope tonight its half as good as last night.
A Stalled Car And Phone Sex
So, things didn't exactly go as planned this weekend. Friday evening, when I was leaving to go visit James (I guess it's now safe to give him a name) when my car decided it didn't want to start. It isn't the newest car but it's the first time I've had any serious problems with it. And being that I live in a smaller college town there aren't a lot of car repair shops - and even less that are open on the weekends. So, I was unable to go visit James and he was unable to come visit me because he had something going on with one of his classes this weekend. They said my car would be ready sometime this week, which I hope it is because next week I have off and was planning to go home. But even, if isn't ready James said he would go out of his way to pick me up on his way home from school. Which, if he did I know exactly how I would pay him back. But we did make things interesting Friday night. We ended up talking on the phone. Which, isn't half as much fun but somehow we got on the subject of phone sex. I've never done it before but when it came naturally. It just flowed out of my mouth. I told him what I would be doing to him with my mouth. And it got both me and him off very quickly. But it still wasn't as satisfying as the real thing and I'm really looking forward to seeing him one way or another next weekend.
Just An Update
Sorry, I haven't updated for a while - but there really hasn't been much to say. I've kept my lips pretty much to myself with one exception since the weekend I saw guy from my school. I'm going up to his school this weekned. Which, I hope will be fun. And I think I have some sort of feelings for him. What kind of feelings - I don't know. I hope it's not just infatuation or however you spell it. We'll see what happens since we'll be forced to spend a lot of time together. And while I could give him a blowjob the entire time I think we'll be doing other things too. But what was the one exception? - you ask. Well, last weekend I was at a frat party. Found myself in a bedroom making out with a guy from one of my classes. I like him but without the alcohol I don't think anything would've happened. But it was kind of funny because, it wasn't his room - he's not even in a frat so we got kicked out of the room. We went back to his dorm room, where we literally just slept. So, I don't know. I guess I like them both but I don't know if anything will happen with the second guy. I think it's just lust.
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