Still on number 4

Well, I'm still at number four. Things kind of faded fast after Monday. And I'm kinda glad they did.

Monday afternoon he came over. We were suppose to go out shopping together but we never made it out of my livingroom. Things got pretty heated on the couch so we moved to my bedroom. We're going thru the motions. Kissing and holding. Clothes start coming off. It's pretty hot. He's on top of me grinding against me. And even though our jeans and underwear it's hot. And our jeans come off and it gets hotter. We're as close to having sex as we can be without having sex. At this point, I really really wanted to have sex with him.

He pulls my panties off and starts rubbing me. He's fingering me and it felt so good. But for some reason it stopped feeling right. I'm not talking about him fingering me. It just didn't feel right emotionally. Not in some weird Chruch way either. I've done a lot naughtier things. I think I just realized, he was out for only one thing. Which, if all he wanted was blowjobs I would've been fine with that. But all he wanted was sex. I felt like I was nothing more than a pussy to him.

He wasn't pushy or forceful about it. But he definitely wanted to have sex.

I ended up giving him a blowjob. It wasn't a great blowjob, I was literally just going through the motions but it was enough to make him cum. And for the first time his cum didn't taste good.

He left after that. Made up some excuse he had to be somewhere else. Which is kind of funny because an hour earlier when we had started making out he had told me he had nowhere to be for the rest of the day.

He said, he would call on Tuesday but he didn't. Which sucks for him because I think if he had put a little more effort into it I would've slept with him. I just needed to know he wanted more than just sex.

But it's ok, I think I'm hanging out with Claire and her boyfriend Friday night!

posted by Bianca @ 11:17 PM