Sex but not with the right guy
I finally had sex this weekend, I don't think I can ever go that long again without it. It was good sex, amazing sex even - but - just not with the guy I really wanted to have sex with.
It might end up being a long story but here it goes. Friday night, I hung out with my friend. We went to a keg party together but halfway thru the party, he's nowhere in sight and I end up talking to this guy. A really cute guy. But then my friend came back and asked if I wanted to leave. I don't think he did it on purpose but the guy I was talking to was scared away. I don't even think he realized what he did until after when we were walking home. I tried to kiss him but he backed away from me. I was kinda shocked and hurt. I told him, I thought he liked me and used what happened at the party as an example. He told me he liked me but just as a friend. But being a little drunk and a lot horny I asked him if he wanted to just fuck. I know he thought about it for a second before he finally said, "I don't think that'll be a good idea."
He's probably right, and I tried to act like I wasn't hurt as we walked the rest of the way back to our dorm. This time, he slept in his bed and I in my own.
Saturday night I went out again, this time with my girl friends. Went to another party. I was introduced to some guy, we started talking and it wasn't long before we were making out. And when he asked me if I wanted to go back to his dorm, I didn't hesitate.
It was really good sex, I wasn't expecting much from him but he ended up surprising me. And when he fucked my ass it felt so good, I was in heaven for a few minutes. He told me I was the first girl he ever did anal sex with and that kind of made me happy for a few minutes but when he came that second time, I felt kind of dirty. I was just fucking him to fuck. I needed physically but it wasn't who I needed emotionally. But at the same time, I have a feeling it won't be our last time fucking. In fact, if I didn't have a test in the morning, I think I'd invite him over right now.
It might end up being a long story but here it goes. Friday night, I hung out with my friend. We went to a keg party together but halfway thru the party, he's nowhere in sight and I end up talking to this guy. A really cute guy. But then my friend came back and asked if I wanted to leave. I don't think he did it on purpose but the guy I was talking to was scared away. I don't even think he realized what he did until after when we were walking home. I tried to kiss him but he backed away from me. I was kinda shocked and hurt. I told him, I thought he liked me and used what happened at the party as an example. He told me he liked me but just as a friend. But being a little drunk and a lot horny I asked him if he wanted to just fuck. I know he thought about it for a second before he finally said, "I don't think that'll be a good idea."
He's probably right, and I tried to act like I wasn't hurt as we walked the rest of the way back to our dorm. This time, he slept in his bed and I in my own.
Saturday night I went out again, this time with my girl friends. Went to another party. I was introduced to some guy, we started talking and it wasn't long before we were making out. And when he asked me if I wanted to go back to his dorm, I didn't hesitate.
It was really good sex, I wasn't expecting much from him but he ended up surprising me. And when he fucked my ass it felt so good, I was in heaven for a few minutes. He told me I was the first girl he ever did anal sex with and that kind of made me happy for a few minutes but when he came that second time, I felt kind of dirty. I was just fucking him to fuck. I needed physically but it wasn't who I needed emotionally. But at the same time, I have a feeling it won't be our last time fucking. In fact, if I didn't have a test in the morning, I think I'd invite him over right now.
3 Comments:
Too bad about the cock-block by your friend... hopefully this new guy is just interim before finding the right guy.
Please would a girl sound in here...
Amy's feeling dirty after sex, and i'm not sure why...
Maybe because she needs some lovin and some cuddlin to go along with the cock...
Maybe because she thinks she's not in control....
Male database corruption...
Girly-girls please provide input, before entire Amy project analy implodes!!!
Well, I've been there and I can only offer what I felt at the time.
In my younger days I got around quite a bit, did some really stupid risky things. Including sleeping with guys I had no emotional attachment with.
After doing this one too many times, I guess something clicked and I realized that I was just being used. I felt dirty.
I figured out that I did need some sort of emotional attachment or connection in order to fully enjoy myself. I think most women do.
I'm not gonna judge anyone who's into random, casual sex..whatever floats your boat. It's just not for me anymore.
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