Some things for me to ponder

Well, Valentine's Day wasn't that much fun. I did end up going out with my girls and of course at the same bar was the guy I used to fool around with last semester. At first I avoided him. Then after a couple drinks I was a little buzzed and when I ran into him in the hallway to the bathroom I stopped to talk him. And we ended up talking for a while but it was mostly awkward. I was buzzed enough to want to go home with him again but not drunk enough to forget why our relationship ended.

There were a couple parts of the night that didn't suck.

I ended up talking to another guy for a while. He's a really cute guy from one of my classes. At one point the bar was so crowded he was pushed up against me. It was enough for me to want to feel a lot more. I wasn't planning to go home with him, but it was an option until he disappeared without saying anything. So, I guess it turns out that sucked too. I'll see what happens in class on Thursday.

And I ended up walking home with a guy that I'm just friends with. A guy, I've known since the first week of classes and wasn't really interested in. At least until now. I don't know if I would pursue him but last night when we went our separate ways, he lives on the floor above me I wished he had gone to bed with me. Maybe just to sleep with him holding me. Maybe a lot more. But he didn't even try to kiss me. I don't even think he was thinking about it.