Still no simple answer

So, I'm leaning towards going back to school tomorrow but I haven't made up my mind yet. However, I did run all my errands and did most of my packing today but I'm still not sure.

He makes me so horny and I so want to go fuck him but I have to think there's someone better than him. Someone that I might not meet or notice if I was involved with someone else.

Plus, the guy I was seeing during break called me last night. I was asleep but he left me a long message basically saying how much he missed me. I want to call him back but I don't know if I can.

I'd love to meet someone new. Start seeing someone to get my mind off of him. Maybe, even have a real relationship. Wouldn't that be something.